You know... there is a time for me to just be myself and let people tolerate me.
And there was a time I did just that and be open about it to some and they accepted me.
I've never asked why and how they managed to do just that.
Prolly my fault now that I am clueless of what might happen.
I can safely say I've changed over time and cut so many people from the past out of my life.
And apparently, some are hurt even by me not contacting them regularly.
I know it is/was my fault but I have a big ego. I won't admit. You should know that by now.
And things happens cause I led to it. Friggin yes if you don't believe in fate or coincidences at all.
So I guess it is my fault for every single thing that I've not done and ya.
Sometimes I am on MSN waiting for her to come on.
Sometimes I would stare at her number not knowing what to just say to her.
Sometimes her every SMS I would reply eventho' there isn't a need to.
Hey friends, have I ever done that to you?
No, I am not obsessed with her.
Cause I know her. She's the kind who hardly talk anything out to people.
And sometimes would refer her situation in third person.
Most of the time, everyone knows her for her intelligent brain and great grades.
But I know her. Well, at least, I knew her.
Cause when she finally came on MSN, I was away but my status busy.
She might have thought I am ignoring her or smth.
She's still mad. I know. For the day I didn't turn up.
And my last thought was, I'd try to make it up but apparently she's too hard for me right now.
After what... 9 years of friendship? Yea, I'm a loser.
Can't even keep her.
I've not been open to her or anyone for these past years... but only him.
I got dirt and yea... its accumulating and this time I won't wait in the MSN, won't reply the not needed SMS and let's have a pat.
We are friends. Just friends.
And I'll give you the smiles that I posed for many times... if you know what I mean.
I'll be seeing ya. Soon. Friend.
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