When everything doesn't goes my way, I am willing to compromise.
And if it does, I am thankful to the people involved.
But if I didn't follow your way, I have my reasons & if you asked, we could come with a win-win situation.
When people treats me bad, I feel sad, angry and sometimes wonder.
And if they don't, I feel treasured and appreciate for treating me as an equal.
But if I treat you bad, I won't lie the fact that I felt accomplished but at the same time, I feel my self-worth decreases.
When I feel comfortable, I tend to open myself up & sometimes it is too much too handle. Even for myself.
And if I don't, I would be as silent as a mime or indirectly makes you uncomfortable as well.
But if I had made you uncomfortable, I am so sorry. Be it direct or indirect.
When I have a grudge on you, this is the one thing that I hate about myself - I can't let it go till we've settled it.
And if it doesn't settle, even after a long period of time (years), I seek forgiveness from Him for holding it against you.
But if we've settled it, sometimes we could just automatically be friends again otherwise, we're not friends at all to avoid another grudge.
When I do things out of initiative, without other's instructions (ikhlas), it is either i LOVE to do it or HAD to do it.
And if you don't appreciate it, you've misused me and even treat me as a nobody. You've just earned a grudge.
But if you appreciate once in awhile, it doesn't have to be a 'thank you', small gestures like 'helping' would suffice & make my heart smile. Thank you if you've done that for me. I appreciate you.
But somehow, that doesn't seem to be enough for some.
So please, tell me how to be a perfect human like you.
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