My labour experience

The ever long awaited labour story. Summarized. Well, I try to.

18 May 2013

On this day, we, the husband and I, went to our new abode intending to clean it one last time before our furniture arrives. Aside from being a total bloated penguin, I could not bare to see the husband doing all the cleaning while I lean and supervise. Thus, I just helped with mopping our master bedroom. Assure you, that was all that I did (for our house).

Sidetrack: Earlier on, I just cleaned the toilet at my in-law's place. Of course, I was nagged at but I could not care much cause I guess the 'nesting' instinct is kicking in.

After cleaning, we head out to fetch FIL back from work. Upon reaching my in-law's place, I tried walking but felt my pelvic region so tight and that if I were to take another step, something might snap (or so I thought). No pain, nothing, just tightness.

I tried to hold my position for awhile but it was so awkward. Though at midnight, no one will be walking around and sorts but to have your spouse waiting for you to walk & let's be factual, how long are you gonna stand there and hold, right? So I took a step. And I felt water trickling down my legs and the "tightness" was gone. I used my fingers to check if it was blood & was assured that it was a clear fluid.

At this point of time, I wasn't in panic but the husband was. He knocked on my SIL's bedroom (who was asleep already by the way) and started asking her questions. I was given a bottle of air Zam Zam by FIL. The husband & SIL both seated in the living room talking about what to do next. SIL wasn't sure but she shared that her waterbag broke twice and only then she headed to the hospital. I wasn't in pain, let me remind you. We talked and listen to her labour experience & that's when I felt like I need to rush to the toilet.

Before I could remove my pants, water gushed out. Scary. My legs were shaking trying to adapt to what just happened. Finally calmed down, cleaned and changed. Told them what happened & I started to feel contractions streaming in irregularly. So instead of sitting down and talk, I was pacing about to ease the pain. That was finally when SIL said we should go to the hospital since I was already pacing and feeling contractions.

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Okay, let me rest here for awhile on the labour experience.
Next entry shall be the continuance.
Love to keep you hanging. Muack muack.

Thicker

Tomorrow is Hari Raya Haji. One of the festive seasons for the Muslims. I almost typed Malay -.-" which then I reminded myself, not only the Malays are Muslims. Duh! No plans aside from visiting both of our grandfathers.

My atuk is doing great. He's much better now I should say. Eating well, put on weight, looking healthier. All in all, he's doing great. His grandfather though has just been admitted due to an infection on his leg. I don't know how to describe the experience during our previous visit. I still do hope for his recovery no matter what the doctors says. His will to fight is still intact & we shall all pray for him.

Let's not talk about my life right now. I am full of emotions. Angry. Sad. Disappointed. Confused. Upset. There's more than what was stated. Things have been going South with some people & it is not as if I did not try. I've tried but more people seemed to just let it be or better still, add kerosene to fire.

All I can say is, both of us, husband & wife made choices on our own. Things happened & our actions are all our individual decision. I did not force him to say/do things and neither did he. So, whatever is between you & me, do not blame him. I hope you could stop feeding nonsense to them, the innocent beings. It is time for you to grow up. The least.

Thankful

I am pretty much annoyed. Cooked a little but still so much leftovers! I am quite fortunate that both of us does consume yesterday's food.

There's so much I intend to write but I am not sure if this is the right medium to pour everything out. It sucks. It really is.

One thing for sure. I am constantly praying that things do get better and that both of us, husband & wife will be showered with rezeki. Insya'allah.

Spanking newbie

First time blogging through my iPhone.

AWESOME!

Please don't leave me

Trial #1

As many of you know that my face has never been flawless (aside from during primary & secondary school days). Each time it heals, someone'll say something about it and there it goes again... the cycle. I had been very much aware and sad actually pertaining to my face condition (aside from my weight).

So, I had been sourcing for new ways to heal the blemishes caused by the previous encounters of pimples & itchy fingers. Heh. So, I managed to find a suitable facial wash to almost prevent many pimples from popping up - Clean & Clear Foaming Facial Cleanser. Yay! Been using it for 5 months now and it helps.

Now, the next step it to get rid of the blemishes and reduce the redness. Euw! I know. My horrific face! Anyways, I bought this some time ago and I intend to use this now since I pretty much managed in preventing new pimples. So this is my 1st attempt to clear it up a little.

This is the Cream.

It's really inexpensive.
Just $7 or so.
Now, let's just see for these 3 months coming if it works or otherwise.
I am applying it 2 times a day for now.
Once in the morning & once before bed.

Well, for now, Bismillah...

food poisoning

Food poisoning is a common, usually mild, but sometimes deadly illness. Typical symptoms include nausea, vomiting, abdominal cramping, and diarrhoea that occur suddenly (within 48 hours) after consuming a contaminated food or drink. Depending on the contaminant, fever and chills, bloody stools, dehydration, and nervous system damage may follow. These symptoms may affect one person or a group of people who ate the same thing (called an outbreak). - www.emedicinehealth.com

Hubby's got it this morning. I took time-off but I guess it turned out to be a half-day leave instead. Left for work while he was sleeping and I don't feel right about leaving him while he is sick. Sigh.

Sorry Love. I just had to attend work today. I'll check on you later.

Numb-ing Instance

Am upset but I don't intend to put it across.
Words, actions formed from the biggest ignorance.
But it's okay. It's for my own good.

So cheers, to becoming a good person and learning to be patient.
I've got all that I need.

I can just smile from reading this over and over again.

Common understanding

I AM HATING THIS.
Go figure.

i wanna dig a hole...

...and bury myself in it.

I went for a test which I failed.
Felt so so down that I cried while Hubby's on the other line (which is so not me!).
It was a pretty depressing and demoralizing moment.

But.
I insist on being strong and go through another try which is the final try.
Promised myself that 2 tries is all I am gonna take. So yeah.

And now, I shall lock myself up in the room making some noises while I weep quietly on my failure.

Streaks

This morning I was greeted with a not so nice taste in my mouth. Euw. I have no idea what is it. The taste is still here though I brushed my teeth twice to get rid of it. Ugh! So disgoosting! Makes me feel wanna puke! Anyways, I think it is the need to eat. LOL!

The weather is bad at this point of time so it doesn't permits me to get out and get food. Hungry hungry hungry. Been 2 weekdays that I have not prepared breakfast. I know, shame on me. But I was in a mood. Lazy & mood swings just not a good combination.

Sorry ex-boyfriend that I nagged at you this morning as I rummaged through my wardrobe looking for something proper to wear for today. I understand that you are tired and all but I still nagged. I am so sorry. I do feel bad about it. Haish. Insya'allah I'll try to stop doing that k.

The agony

Due to the overwhelming amount of dust particles present in the "new" office,

I have a swollen left eye.
Never been this bad before.
Believe me, this is just the beginning.
I did not take a shot of the very next morning though as I could hardly open it!

Please kindly ignore my fugly face.

My few coming Wednesdays...

I hope I am going somewhere with all these courses I am gonna sign up for.
One thing at a time & I vow to put it to practise.
I shall not waste the $$$ and the time and effort I have put in for all these.

Insya'allah, I'll get to where I dream of being.

One can only hope

Now, second entry for the day is not a sign of me coming back to regular updating. NEVER keeping your hopes for any daily update cause I, myself, am not sure if I can keep this up.

I have been induced with UTI by the clinic nearby here (meaning Bishan). I hope that it is all gone by now though. 5 days worth of medicine for $50?? You have got to be kidding right? But I think the medicine was just a few bucks whereas the urine test and the **** test adds up to that amount. *shrugs* I certainly hope so. Otherwise, that medicine had better work!

And lately, I have had the cramping on my left ankle (the one I sprained last raya) and it was just a mild pain. I did some research on it and only to be alerted of a possibility of diabetes. Being me, I got so worked up on that fact and is still am now! So tomorrow onwards, no drinks with glucose in it and no sweet stuff as well. NO NO. I shall discipline-ly refrain from consuming any for my very own good cause.

The Husband is working late today which means I have the whole bed to myself tonight. So spacious =( I love to sleep at small spaces... except! during pre-menstrual. Hehs. Another fact about me.

I'd like to inform my fellow online bloghoppers that I am indeed, Married.

Thanks PSB for reminding me.

I had gotten married last 5th June 2010.

Been 1 month and 1 week =)

P/s: Husband, I hope you miss me cause I miss you even though we see each other everyday.

Belated Thank Yous

I know this is alot too late but I guess I could spare this 7 minutes before I knock-off from work to update here with my thank yous to these sets of people who had made our wedding successful. It was definitely one of my grandest memoir of a lifetime!

Services:-
Bridal Outfits - RH Bridal
Bridal Makeup - Kak Nisa from RH Bridal
Photographer & Videographer - Aidil & Dewashah from G2 Productions
DJ - Cik Jo & Family (Semangat Zaman)
Personal room decorator - Mazlinda ( Linda from Jurong West)
Bridesmaids - Idah & Linda

Families:-
My grandfather, parents & brothers. ( without them... it would be possible!)
Wak Ros & family. ( for rewang-ing especially saving the majlis! )
Wak Idah & family. (rewang-ing, helping me to n fro Ayer Itam to buy our stuff n many more!)
Wak Lin & family. (all for rewang-ing, hadang-ing & karaoke-ing)
Wak Mik & family. (Walaupun jauh tetap dtg & rewang.)
Wak Nana & family. (Abg Fizi & Yati for driving me to the MPH)
Wak Isa & family.
Hopefully I din miss out on anyone.

My aunts & uncles whom are not from Singapore, thanks for coming.

Friends:-
Yasmin, Evan & Guoxiang - Touched for the patience in having to wait for my arrival & thanks so much you guys!
Farhana.
Solihin, Khadijah, Zaharah & Kamsinah - After so long tak jumpa! dtg juga ye korang. tenkiuk!
Rojak Clan - MUST COME ONE! Thanks you for your attendance & meetup to write in my guestbook!
Wdls wellington ex-cheerleaders - thanks for coming! you gals are so much more beautiful now!

And last but not least... Now, that it is all over, Can we do it all over again? hahahahhaha!

the natural strands

It's been 2 weeks that I found huge amount of hair on the pillow that I slept on.
It means I am having a severe hair loss problem!
What are the causes?

I've been using the same set of shampoo and conditioner since years ago and I have not used any hair products lately. It got worst this morning that I wanted to cry when I see it. Hope it is curable. I researched and found that it may be a part of the stress. Guess what. Resources online states that it might take 6 - 12 weeks to get better. Hope it is not that long otherwise I might be balding by then. Help!

hey

So what they said wasn't true. That the nearer your marriage is, the more problems you get. I wonder who made this up. Seriously, no thanks to you. Life is great. Had been better. Now, I am smiling so that you know how happy I am with everything. From the planning to the preparation of the wedding. Strangely enough, I am quite contented.

p/s: read every italic words with it's opposite meaning.

comfort songs

Welcome to my life by Simple Plan, Mocking Bird by Eminem, Kill you by Eminem, Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne and etc,etc,etc.

They are my muse for now... Fucking hate it.

Shhhh! Now,now...

Everyone says,
"Everything's gonna be alright."

friendship

Go to google.com.sg and type in 'friendship' in the search space.
Pretty sure there are a list of websites with definition of friendship.
Might I add, even a lifeless website knows the definition of a friendship.
In case you didn't know, read on...

Friendship is the cooperative and supportive relationship between two or more people. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, affection, and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as the exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for some, the practical execution of friendship is little more than the trust that someone will not harm them.

Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating the following on a consistent basis:

• the tendency to desire what is best for the other
• sympathy and empathy
• honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth, especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart
• mutual understanding

- extracted from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Friendship

Perhaps to validate my decision...

• When I searched for it, you seemed concern but never came across your mind to confess or rather inform me what was going on. Instead, all you did was... shall I re-enact? "Are you sure there are 10 sets?" bloody hell.
• I vent my problem on the missing set for months! A friend would have put me out of my misery! Let alone that, those are the times you could have come with a clean slate! Before I came up with the guts to make a report.
• SMS me to ask if I had touched your bag while you were gone as something went missing was when I found out that it was the set I was looking for. Which was what you STOLE from me.
• Put me in the spot and smsed me with "On account of our friendship..", was the cherry topping!

Seriously.
Friends don't steal from friends.
Friends don't keep quiet when a friend is going to be labelled "irresponsible" forever due to something went missing under her care.
Friends don't make their friends pay for their mistakes.
Friends don't put you on a spot.
Those are the basic levels of a friendship.

Thanks much for being such a good friend all these while.

I think your confession came at a wrong timing. It should have been when I told you I had to fork out the money to replace the missing set which might be above 200 bucks. It should have been when I asked the office to check the CCTV and login tap card. It should be when I told you it was either one of us. It should be the other times when we were laughing our ass off before I spoke to the necessary people.

And on account of our friendship, it doesnt matter... as there never was.
Might take years for me to forgive but never forget.

Factual

Who claims that you could type out possibly anything under the sun and right through your brain cells in a blog?
I did until now...

Well, as a matter of fact, I do not understand why anyone would bother to read and then spread it. It is not as if I am some famous blogger or whatever. Wait, perhaps I am and maybe that's the reason behind it all? Oh, it is flattering, really!

And to you, perhaps the next time could you literally ask me directly 'what' or perhaps 'who' does that blog entry refers to before acknowledging it to an 'assumed person'. I will definitely appreciate the 'concern'.

In anyway, the day went by pretty fast actually.
I ate my ass off and went home late as well.
It was a great day, really.
We talked. Idah, Tina & I.
Session of bonding and crapping I would say.
LOVE.

I feel like signing off now... toodles!
My Mister is meeting me in the morning. Woohoo!